If people see me in person, they will probably think I'm a Bob. It's Nigel, which is pretty sophisticated in my opinion. I am turning 17 this year, which means I am fast on my way to wrinkles and elasticity-challenged skin. I am going to be walking down the red carpet in ten years time, so fuck those who have doubted me. I aspire to be like Lily Allen, because I think she is the coolest person in the world. Okay, this is getting so draggy. Find out about me on my posts.
Hello! I just got back from AMK Hub. Today was super duper draining but still, it was very fun!
Woke up at 7am cos of my unbearable aching bones. My spine felt as though it has been bent. Tried to stretch but to no avail. Managed to fall asleep again and woke up at around 10am. Went to SATA Clinic at AMK for the medical checkup. The queue of Polytechnic students was never-ending, to the point where the doctor had to come out and request for the rest of the queue to come back the next day for their checkup. Took an X-Ray test, a urine test, an eyesight test and took my height and weight. I think I stopped growing already. I'm totally afraid of that. I do not want to be stuck at 171cm. My target is 178cm. Height is pretty essential for an appearance-conscience person like me. But the good news is I managed to maintain my weight, even after the mountains of junk food and sweet stuff I have devoured. Like, I really don't know how I do it. I keep thinking I'm pass the 100kg mark every time. But it is always at the 80+kg range. I don't even exercise. Hmmm, if I actually go on a regulart exercise, I can actually slim down. I have a hunch my metabolism rate is exceptionally high, just that my food intake is too great for mere metabolism to burn. Okay, enough with the health issues.
After the medical checkup, I went to ge the present from the car and left for AMK Hub. Waited for Kim to arrive. Went to AMK Jubilee's Popular to get a card. Walked back to AMK Hub to search for a large enough bag. Managed to get one, and settle down at the foodcourt. It felt annoyingly awkward to finish decorating the card at the foodcourt, but we still managed to do it. You have no idea the thousands of lies we had to tell JiaJia so that we can get it finished. We lied to her that we took around 2 hours to reach there, but actually we were always in the mall. Met up with the Bear family, the rest of the Nutters, JieSheng, LianZhi and Daryl finally, and we had to ask everyone to finish the card discreetly, in the washroom. After that, we went to play pool at the ancient, primordial building just outside AMK Hub. Jiehui came, and after a few more rounds, we went to Nebo. Had dinner, and watched Underworld: Evolution. It was JiaJia and Jiahui's supposed first M18 movie, so it was not surprising that they were freaked out. To the rest of us, we were just making fun of the gory and violent parts, and also the sexual scenes. I think we have grown immune to the gore and violence after so many of these kinds of shows.
Brought in the cake with the birthday song, and JiaJia, MJ, and I could finally relieve ourselves at the washroom. Gave JiaJia her present. 100% Crumpler goodness! Settled the bill and went home.
Getting tired and sleepy. Goodbye. Shall post photos when JiaJia sends me them.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Labels: JiaJia's birthday.
Work today was exhausting! Got really wet and dirty cos of all the washing and all the accidental spills.
Awww, JiaJia couldn't book a pit on time, so I guess we are not having a barbeque after all. At least I know that I that I gotta book very early for the March one. Gonna be celebrating JiaJia's birthday tomorrow!
Too exhausted to make any substantial posts. Gonna get the medical-checkup tomorrow morning. Having a NERVY B. ! Hope the doctor doesn't recommend me to get a blood test. They say your hand will feel weak after a blood test.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Labels: 2 BBQs.
Just completed my pre-enrolment stuff on the site. Tons of useless crap needed to be filled in.
Anyway, I went to school with MJ, Kim, Olivia, and JieSheng today. JiaJia left before I came. :[ Kim then left for her tuition job. Chatted with Mr. Tien after walking around the whole school. Left school at around 6.30pm. Waited with MJ for Kim to come to CP. Kim and I then went to have dinner and then went for our 'night job'. We then went back at around 9.15pm.
Can't wait for Saturday! I can finally get my sotong! Yay! I can sponsor 25 squids if I can get a styrofoam box to store them. It was supposed to be at a country club at Tuas(Not the industrial area.) but JiaJia couldn't book in time. So we will be having it at ECP. Gonna be having fun with the clique, the Bear Family, JieSheng, and Daryl. Too bad Daryl and Olivia can't go. We will make a speech for the absentees, haha.
Oh yes, speaking of ECP, I will be planning the 'clique' outing. Gonna be inviting about half of the class. It is strictly a clique and close friends outing. Not to sound biased and stuff, but I can't handle so many people, especially when it concerns money and food. It is so hard to get money and sometimes people say, ''Er, see first." Like, what am I supposed to assume? If I don't include that person in, he/she will blame me if she wants to eat. If I do include he/she in, he/she will blame me telling him/her to spend money. What if there are 10 of those people? Then, where the hell am I supposed to get the money to buy the food? I know I am working, but I definitely don't have enough to get all the food before everyone pays me. So, I will have to say no to people who wants to invite more people. I do not want to sound like a jerk, but there.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Labels: Nothing.
Starting work tomorrow, though the job is depressingly low. To heighten my month's pay, I decided to get another job. I'm gonna be calling JiaJia's tutoring agency. Like this, I can make more money and I can finally get my pendants before they are taken off the shelves.
Nothing much happened today. Helped my mum make an Oreo Cheesecake!
Till I have something interesting to say, bye!
Monday, February 23, 2009
Labels: Clique + friends.
Spent the whole night thinking about the class outing yesterday. Decided to make it just a small clique outing, while inviting some more closer classmates. It's kinda too difficult to plan a class outing by myself, and it is also too trouble some to call everyone. So, ya, I guess 4E shall just die down like this. Not to sound pessimistic, but it is true. Everyone is schooling, and I don't wanna bother them as well, then I also don't have much time planning since I am starting work soon.
So far, I decided on a barbeque at ECP. I haven't had a BBQ in like 4 months. I can't even remember how my last BBQ was like. Oh wait, that was at JianYu's place. Oh ya, but I didn't eat much anyway, cos of some selfish inconsiderate people, so that wasn't quite a pleasant BBQ.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Labels: Second job.
Just came back from Marine Parade. Will be notified of the job tomorrow. I can finally get a stable job. Yay! FYI, I am going to work at a BUBBLE TEA shop. Kinda comical, don't cha think? But it's not just bubble tea, I have to learn how to use the fryer, the waffle maker and blender. These things freak me out. Come on, I am afraid of the oven. Lol. I know, it is funny. But at least the shop is super close to my place and I can finally raise some money for my pendant.
Re-read the enrolment package, and I still can't comprehend a single damn thing in there. It's like reading the back of potato chips from Japan or something. And I haven't filled in any form, mainly cos I have no idea which I should fill. But at least there is something to cheer me up on this. I GOT A CRUMPLER! Yay! Thanks to my cousin and aunt, I got to use it for my school year. It is huge! Haha! :]
I suddenly just wanna make it a small outing for the clique and other friends. But that would make things obvious, so I guess I have no choice. Oh well, they aren't on top of the world right now anyway.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Labels: Mixed feelings.
Labels: Lazy afternoon.
Labels: Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Labels: I need my stuff badly.
Labels: Job No. 2.
FINAL FANTASY VII Silver Pendant CLOUD US$189.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Silver Ring US$94.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Crystal Pendant KEYBLADE US$115.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Crystal Pendant SORA US$115.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Crystal Pendant ROXAS US$115.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Silver Charm SORA US$54.99 KINGDOM HEARTS Silver Charm HEARTLESS US$50.99 I am going to work extra hard to get the first silver pendant. I must get it! Labels: Insufficient chi-ching.
A Cloud Strife Silver Pendant Cost: US$189.99 Just makes me wanna reach into the screen and slap the merchandising director till he makes this pendant free. Sheesh kebabs! It's only silver. It's teens who like this game! Not billionaires! Gonna go mourn over my poor-ness. Bye. Labels: New links.
Labels: Boring.
Labels: Valentine's Day.
Labels: Weak.
Labels: and Video., Film, Sound
Labels: Family Reunion.
Labels: Aching bones.
Labels: Job...
Labels: Stanford.
Labels: Part-time job and Persona 3
Labels: Minimum wage.
Labels: Sambal Sotong.
Labels: FUCK
Have been playing Miniclip games all day long. Yes! This is how boring I am! I want my job! I want my pendant! I want my ring! I want my static arts! I want it to be preoccupied!
Having mixed feelings about heading into Interior Design. I am actually quite psyched about the course. Artistic people gathering, so fun! But I gotta get through the fuckloads of forms and whatever crap. Oh, and that stupid medical check-up. I am so scared that the doctor may wanna do a blood test, and moreover, I gotta pay for it! Extra 20 bucks. I can buy half a Cactuar plushy with that! Anyway, I just found out that the Architecture course isn't in the School of Design. Apparently it is in the school of Built Environment, and students do not need a notebook. Wow, primitive!
The main sites I have been visiting is Nigella Lawson and Rachael Ray's sites. I just love their show! I always wake up and it is The Rachael Ray Show! Okay, so I'm a hopeless foodie. Sue me!
Haha! Will be trying out some recipes these few days.
Having mixed feelings about planning the class outing. I don't know why, but I just don't think 4E can ever be bonded again. I mean, we have no classroom, so I guess some don't really bother or something. No, I'm not having a male-ish PMS. I'm just kinda reluctant to plan something that not many people would appreciate. And people close to me know that I do not want to invite some people there. But if I do not invite this or that person, their clique won't go, then the clique close to them won't go, and so on. Stupid butterfly effect! Hmph. I will think about when my insomnia kicks in later.
Totally bored today. I was supposed to make some Jumbleberry Crumble today, but I woke up too late and my mum had to use the kitchen to make a new batch of strawberry cheesecake, cos the last batch was spoiled in the fridge when my mum had to fetch my brother from bowling yesterday.
Speaking of yesterday, I saw Nancy Lam at Heartland Mall yesterday. She has long permed hair now, weird. Anyway, I am so bored at home these days cos there is no work! Sheesh, I need a stable job! I need to buy my PENDANT!
Gonna be baking and cooking these days. Nothing much to do, and I'm so so so lazy to go jogging. I hate jogging around the park here. It is so, uuuuuuggghhh. Rather jog on a trackmill.
Oh yes, I am planning to plan a class outing with all the free time on my hands. I have been wanting to go to ECP for a long time now. I don't know why, I really have no mood to try to learn how to ride a bike. I am just not in a mood for learning anything recently. I rather stay in my comfort zone when I have the chance. I will prolly learn how to ride a bike when we have a clique outing, though. Anyway, I don't think biking during a class outing is a good idea, cos that's not a way of 'catching up'. Anyway, I have no idea when the March holidays are. Hmmmm.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Sheesh kebabs! I was happy to see my Enrolment Package today, but once I opened it, I just wanted to burn every single FORM in it! God, there's practically a gazillion forms in there to fill in, and they are merely just for payment! Oh, and I have to get a medical checkup! Oh my god! I hate anything medical! If the doctor needs me to have a blood test, I rather have him put me to sleep then take my blood. I don't mind paying double! I hate the sight of blood, okay maybe just my own, though I do like the taste of blood(I am not mental!). Also, the SP guidebook has all the attire rules. TOTALLY NAN CHIAU!
I just looked up the diploma-plus thing, and I am so psyched about it! I NEED to get in if there is any chance I can walk on the red carpet. I NEED to get into the Theatre Performance and Production and get my Certificate in Theatre Performance and Production(CTPP). But the sucky thing is, only 25 people can get chosen each year. And among all the hundreds of SP students, I have to fight, brawl, tear, slash my way through to the 25 spots available. Should I not get chosen, I shall dedicate my life to becoming a serial killer, killing all the 25 people and lecturers in the most gruesome way possible. To make it worse off, it is by invitation ONLY. The lecturers will judge by our aggregates and stuff.
I am planning to go to the SP Roadshow to get my laptop. As recommended by the lecturers, I should get a High-End HP Pavillion dv6700. MacBooks aren't very favourable in the school.
Gonna go freak out over everything! Bye!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I'm pretty much alone in the house, and when I'm out too. I don't have really have anyone to do stuff with, stuff I always wanted to try. What are they you may ask? I want to try out pottery, cooking, squash, planting, and spending time at TCC. It's like, chicken soup for the teenage soul, cept for the squash.
Today is another boring day wasted cos I am not working today. I bet MFM isn't gonna call us. Hmph. I need cash! I need cash badly! I need my pendant badly! I need my Crisis Core badly! I need my Dissidia badly!(though it only comes out in June.) I need my Re:CoM badly!
I am totally acting like a baby but I don't care, I want my stuff!
Bye.
Just got home from Junction 8. Went for the job interview. I think I screwed it, badly. I had to say I was a little stubborn. Good going Nigel! I need money really badly! I want my money for my pendant! I hope it doesn't get sold out. That would suck shit.
Took 156 home. Met LX, YanLing and Jolin on the way. Loooooooooooooooooong time since I met them. Hmmm, suddenly gave me an idea to plan a class outing for the March holidays. Hmmm, maybe.
Gonna go do something boring, whcih is thinking of something to do. Bye!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I am going to be changing my job tomorrow. Reason's cos we are not stable workers and we practically work only once a week. At this rate Sherina will raise enough money to buy her plane ticket by December, of next year. We will be heading to Manhatten Fish Marke tomorrow for an interview. 5 bucks an hour, great. Not much worth it, but at least I make more money. This is what I want, no, must buy, to save myself from the clutches of insanity.
FINAL FANTASY VII Materia Pendant HOLYUS$126.99
FINAL FANTASY VII Materia Pendant METEORUS$126.99
CRISIS CORE -FINAL FANTASY VII- Silver Locket LOVELESSUS$136.99
KINGDOM HEARTS II STATIC ARTS US$89.99
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
NEW LINKS ARE UP! Feeling pretty accomplished today! I just linked up sites of games and shows I so totally love. If you take a look at the merchandising store, I have a whole basket of stuff I am dying to get a hold of. But that kind of cash is totally out of my league. I roughly estimated the money I need in total, and it is about $4000 Singapore dollars. I want the jewelry so badly. They look so totally cool-rific! Just take a look at this one. 
Monday, February 16, 2009
It has been very duhhhhhhhhhh lately, since everyone is in school and all. Ain't much with just the half of the clique. Today, I have finally started my plans for cooking at home, with my mum. I have been waking up very late for the past few weeks so I just couldn't find the time to buy the groceries.
Today's Monday, and I used to be really agitated on this dreaded day. But now, I await Monday with anxiety, cos Channel 5 has got awesome shows from 10pm right till 1am. It starts with Desperate Housewives, Private Practice, and then Grey's Anatomy. The first and last shows are the best in the fourth season.
Before the release of the O 'Level' results, I used to blog a lot. Now, I am just so exhausted and lugubrious to care about this blog, especially when no one tags anymore, cept for Olivia. Even that passer-by douchebag is gone. Obviously, he ran out of insults so I guess he ain't coming here anymore.
This blog has around 2 more months till it is time for it to rest in peace, and let a new blog take its place. Its wings are ready to cease its radiance, it is ready to take them off. This is my first and only blog. It is not easy to let it go. I can't just go, "Farewell blog" without feeling depressed or guilty. My mind is a little too complicated for others to fathom. I live life in a very ironic way, and sometimes it can annoy people.
Short paragraphs, my posts have been filled with short paragraphs. I used to write long paragraphs so easily, sometimes I have to stop my myself. Now, no matter how long I spend on a post, it ends up short, unsatisfied with the capacity of information it has. Like right now, I spend 10 minutes on this paragraph and it is still so short.
Whatever, I am feeling so ugh to write any substantial sentence. Bye.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
It's 3 minutes away from the end of Valentine's Day, which was totally awesome! Had a very FORMAL dinner with the clique today. Yes, FORMAL! I totally hate this word as of today. Next time, no matter how formal an outing is gonna be, I am sticking to bermudas and tees from now on.
Went to MOF today for dinner. I wasn't dressed for my age. I was dressed like a 28 year old. But anyway, I had sukiyaki today! It was awesome! Had this potato seafood salad too. It was really good with mayo. After dinner, I had a Macha Kakigori. It was awesome too, especially the soft serve on top! As the name suggests, it really is soft! And JiaHui's dessert had CORNFLAKES and AGAR AGAR! Haha! Had a great time there. Felt like vomiting after dinner. Went to the Fountain of Wealth to settle the bills. Totally random, but we got chased out. Took a group after that and went home.
I totally wasted all my salary on this Valentine's Day, but it's okay. Need to work more to get my Crisis Core and I have to save up even more for Dissidia: Final Fantasy. All the protagonists and antagonists in the Final Fantasy series come into one game. How cool is that?!!?!?!?!?
Adieu.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Haven't been blogging for a while lately. Reason's cos I need to get my head back together in one piece, especially when all the depressing news came to me all at once.
Well, I am officially not a student-to-be of Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I am a student-to-be of Singapore Polytechnic, where practically no one I know is going to. Checked out the course information for Interior Design, and I'm not liking what I see. It seems very stressful and the envionment doesn't seem very conducive. Moreover, there isn't an internship module at all. Bummer.
Planning to quit my job earlier than I expected. I totally need these two months to settle down and gather all my strength, or what is left of it.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Oh my god! I am so freaking out right now! Tomorrow is the appeal results! I am so nervous! I know I know, nothing fortunate has been happeing to me when it comes to education. 2 setbacks, now I really hope my appeal will be successful. If not, I will seriously cry my guts out, even if I got into my second appealed choice. The 2nd and 3rd choice are just choices I use to fill up the space. I NEED TO GET INTO NGEE ANN POLY!! My life will be over if I don't.
Gonna go watch anime. Bye.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Just came back from the Family Reunion. It was fun, though I didn't win the lucky draw. The food was nice, though I thought the menu was not well selected. The cereal prawns were merely touched. I think less than 10 were eaten, mostly by me. The desserts were pretty bad. It was commented that the tau suan was horrible, and the yam paste was too diluted. I KNEW WE SHOULD TAKEN THE CHOCOLATE MOUSSE! And the cereal prawns should be switched with the sotong. But it is okay, cos in the next reunion, most probably 3 years later, I will be volunteering to take care of the food and lucky draw(Hehehe.). But overall it was a successful event. They did put photos of me when I was like still in kindergarten, when I was practically anorexic or something. -.-
The family tree was very nice. I have a copy pasted on my wall. Hmmm, oh yes, there was a very funny thing that happened to me just now.
I was heading to the bar to get a glass of coke. But the waitor was preoccupied with clearing the tables, so I went in the counter to get some myself. I was finding the glass for soft drinks, which was of a different size from the wine glass. Then a uncle-in-law or something came up to the counter.
Relative: Give me my stout.
Me: [stunned but still smiling] Er, ok.
[Takes up a bottle from the ice]
Relative: No not this one. [puts it back and takes stout out]
Relative: Okay, open.
Me: Huh, errrr... [stunned]
Relative: Huh, don't know how to open ah?
[Waitor carries table towards storage room and crashed something with a loud bang, catching everyone's attention]
Me: Oooookay. [quickly pours coke into a wine glass and runs away.]
Gonna go watch anime now. Bye.
Friday, February 6, 2009
I'm back from work, freaking work. I am SO SO SO SO SO EXHAUSTED!
If you don't already know, I'm a goddamn waitor. Today, I had 2 shifts! What the hell. I had to wake up at 8am and I had to travel to Tanjong Pagar and woke my ass off from 11am to 3pm. I was working at a Nonya Chinese Restaurant. Got scolded by the mean bitch who was in charge or something. She is so unprofessional, cos she was shouting at us in front of everyone. After the shift we rushed to Suntec City and we started working again. Sheesh, the job starts at 7pm. We don't need a 4 hour briefing. And by the way, I was using today's experience to judge how long I was planning to work. And I am stopping work by the end of the month. And I have already decided on the first thing I'm gonna spend my money on: A FULL BODY MASSAGE! My bones will probably get osteoporosis or something by the time I'm 20.
Gonna go sleep now. I am sensing a cramp when I'm sleeping.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
I am officially back to depression mode again. Today, Sherina and I went job-hunting. Firstly, we went to the job interview as a telemarketer. They only offer one vacancy so we turned it down. Finally, we settled down to have lunch. Walked to Raffles Place and went to Robinsons. Walked around and waited till 1pm for the interview. Filled in the application form. They seemed totally unprofessional, cos they didn't even have pens for us! And the guy was pretty rude. Dozens of people started coming, and my mood totally shot down like lightning. Hate crowds, especially when three-quarters of them are probably gangsters. And the job sucked shit. We have to undergo training from the 2th to the 13th of March, and the job's only from 17th to 30th March. I don't wanna go train and work with a bunch of alcoholic smokers. So, I decided not to go for the interview, and Sherina was pretty pissed. Haha.
Went to Far-East Plaza and we searched for the agency at the sixth level, HARD! And then, we realized we were at the wrong place. IT WAS FAR-EAST SHOPPING CENTRE! Walked for miles and finally reached there. The place looked like it was there before the beginnning of time, SERIOUS! It looked like it was from prehistoric times or something. Went to the agency. Got the job. Just like that, haha. I'm a waitor! But there was a catch, a stupid freaking catch: My hair has to be BLACK!
So ya, that was how my hair turned black over the evening. Went to get business pants, and leather shoes. Though I wasn't a blonde, my hair totally made me freaking sad, cynical, and annoyed. Gonna go turn in early now. Bye.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Like the new song? It is called Memories Of You, the sad sng from Persona 3 I mentioned before. The song may not sound as funeral-ish as you thought, but it definitely enhances the sadness in the game.
I was just psyching myself up for school just now. I know, I am not the guy that would go, "Yay! SCHOOOOOL!" But anyway, I went to look for the release date of the appeal results, which is next Monday, 9th of February, after 2pm. Really hope to get into Film, Sound, and Video. I'm starting to aim high, like trying to get the scholarship to get into Stanford. Ya, Stanford! Imagine, when I go working, I go like, "I am from Stanford University in the States". How cool is that!? Totally beats NUS. Well, anyway, if I can't get into Stanford, then I don't mind NTU.
I'm gonna go now. Bye!
Sherina came over to my place today to look for some jobs that seemed nice. Ended up with only a few, and we got to go to a telemarketing interview tomorrow. We are also gonna go to some places to look for job vacancies. Feeling dead beat right now. 
I finished playing Persona 3 a few days ago. It had a silently sad ending. Though I did not burst into tears, I knew that the sadness was there. It is not stupid to be sad over a game. I knew that tears were flowing back in, tidal waves of it. The song that accompanied the ending made me sadder than ever. The song reminded me of the pain of parting with people close to you, and also the pain of losing a friend. I looked up Youtube and there many people who commented that the ending was really cool and sad at the same time, and some even cried, even guys. This game has seriously changed the way I think. It just makes you want to spend all day with your friends, though in the game hanging out was to strengthen social links. Well, if anyone believe in Tarot cards, I am of the Hierophant Arcana, feel free to hang with me.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Woke up at 12.30pm today. I am considering getting a job for the next month. Hope Sherina's job hunting is going well, cos I am gonna go work with her. I don't wanna drag myself to Takashimaya to work for a lousy pay, like Fashion Lab. I don't want to bust my feet for a mere $4 bucks per hour.
In fact, I want a job that requires minimal standing (My heel looks like that of an 80 year old woman), I don't mind perspiring though. I want a reasonable pay. Also, I don't wanna wear a stupid uniform, cos uniforms are totally behind me already. Oh, I also don't want a job which requires me to be a part janitor as well. I will die!
Hmmm, nothing much these days. Everyone is in school. Hmph, if only everyone was free now, my life won't be boring right now. Hope I will get a good job!
Today, I went to WeeKiat's place for a movie marathon with Sherina. Met her at Kovan in the afternoon and had lunch at KFC. After that, I went to buy herbal eggs and a seafood pizza. Met up with WeeKiat and his girlfriend and went off to his house. Ate an egg on the way, and it totally sucked, BAD! It is like, the herbal-ness of the egg totally brings out the icky rotten egg smell of the egg yolk. Moreover, I could see the egg yolk wasn't totally cooked. It still had a bit of yellow liquid below the solid egg yolk. Like, eeewwww. And the woman at the store was bitchy, she didn't even peel the egg shell.
Watched Date Movie, which totally disgusted me. And we had censor it from Lynn practically the whole time. Not something little girls should be watching at that age. I had to sensor my blog from her too. Left at 7, and my neck was seriously killing me. Had dinner at Pow Sing Restaurant, and you know what? I HAD SAMBAL SOTONG!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
My fever is better now, my runny nose is slight. Tomorrow, people close to me shall part, while I remain in this isolated island. It has been known to me that it is unevitable, it will come no matter what, even if my life was sacrificed. Whatever, my mind and body is too tired to pen down my thoughts.
The fuckers told me that my bad attitude towards them has resulted in my recent major setbacks. I don't believe them. My bad attitude is what kept me from being both sad, angry, and a total failure. It is not my problem, it is them. Their negative attitude towards my being has poured bad luck all over me. They have totally forgotten their roles as parents. Where is the support? How I envy other people. They have parents who support them, and console them when they are sad, unlike the shit I have to face. I get sad, I get pissed off more by them. I get angry, they piss me off somemore. And whatever I do, they just hate it. You know what? I can't even choose for myself. I have to fucking force my voise to get it to their head.
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