If people see me in person, they will probably think I'm a Bob. It's Nigel, which is pretty sophisticated in my opinion. I am turning 17 this year, which means I am fast on my way to wrinkles and elasticity-challenged skin. I am going to be walking down the red carpet in ten years time, so fuck those who have doubted me. I aspire to be like Lily Allen, because I think she is the coolest person in the world. Okay, this is getting so draggy. Find out about me on my posts.
There was an A.Maths Test, Geography Test and our Chemistry SPA. Screwed every single one up. Screwing up Chemistry SPA was the most heart shattering one, cos there will be a possibility that I will have to drop to Combined Science.*prays that Mr.Tien doesn't give me the LETTER* Moreover, the mistake I made was so stupid. I was supposed to divide by the number of moles of the limiting reactant and I did find out the limiting reactant, and then I used the excess instead! UGH! Utter retardation! Friggin' stupid mistake! Now that Stupid fucking LianZhi and his gay mate Jason can maintain their Pure Science status while I drop to Combined Science.
Have been feeling exhausted these few weeks. I come home from school and the next thing is fall asleep on the couch. And I wake up feeling guilty about the time I wasted. Maybe it is true that depressed people show signs of fatigue?
Watched Paprika. Its quite nice, though they left some parts without an explanation. Its really amazing how they thought of the plot- Dreams and reality merging together, and an evil chairperson trying to take over the world. And here comes Paprika, psychotherapist in reality, dream detective in dreams. Just found the nudity parts really unnecessary and disturbing.
Was deciding to mug the whole weekend but I realized I didn't bring a single book home! Great. Now everyone is mugging and I am at home helpless. I can only blame myself for wanting a lighter bag.
Life, no reality sucks big time.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
3:07 AM
Today's Sunday, and tomorrow is Monday. I have seriously Monday blues and it feels as if I have 10 elephants tied to me.
Well, today I wanna talk about, erm, stuff.
NPCC has been dull and boring as usual. I'm passing out already and I still act like a cadet. Like duh, how can we even have the motivation when we have all those friggin CIs are breathing down our necks. Like last week, they were crapping for more than an hour about some leadership and motivation bullshit. It was so boring I almost fell asleep, if not for ZiLing, Vanessa and MuiHwee's constant wake up calls. Who cares why you wanna become a CIs? Save it for someone who actually does. I can feel everyone around me getting more serious and less fun loving. I promised myself I would never become one of those mean NCOs when I become one. It's like getting brainwashed.
I'm currently sitting beside Daryl, and I am improving. Whoots! Behind is LX and JianYu, and in front is Jane, KiaWee, and Aaron. It's really fun there. We joke around everyday, and we have lots of fun there. Laughter everyday. They like me who I am, and well, they happen to be closest guy friends in secondary school life. Ya, they do make fun of my weight and all, but they apologize and tell me that they were joking. I can tell it too. And when I make fun of them, they don't angry either. Same goes for Cherie, Jane and I. We make fun of each other constantly, but we know that we are joking and we have limits. Its not like we insult each other and tell each other to suck it up. Well, thats cos we dun have too. We go far beyond calling each other 'slow', and we didn't get pissed. Well, besides them, I am also getting to know a lot of other people, like WenXin, Jolin, JiaRui and JieSheng (Well, they did welcome me to lunch with them with open arms), Bella and YanLing.
Its not like some other people who expect me to be their 'dog'. Ya, they can insult me and give a stupid excuse saying they were joking. And when I 'insult'( ya, you call 'slow' offensive') them, they see it as an insult and gets pissed off. And when they piss me off they expect me to suck it up. And FYI, I never called you all asshole, not even once. Call me oversensitive? Whadabout you? And so what if LianZhi was really joking in the past? Well he should have spared a thought for my feelings(which none of you even care) before opening his shit hole. Well, he started it. And I was stupid to remain silent in the past. Who made him the king? Who gave him the right to boss me around and I have to listen? I admit, I was fucking stupid in the past. And if you think I should have opened my mouth, well been there, done that, didn't work. Yes, I didn't get over it. And it happened to get out somehow. Now its too late, and I don't think I should be blamed for this. I didn't open his mouth and force him to talk.
Call me an ass, I don't care anymore. Now I know where and who I should turn to, you know, so I don't insulted and be told to suck it up.
Friday, April 18, 2008
1:00 AM
Just back from Sports' Day.
Today was relatively okay, though it was super boring. Nothing to do. Just sit around and chat and read Teenage.( Can you believe a father screws his daughter? )
Anyway, had lunch with WenXin, JiaRui, JieSheng and Jolin. A bunch of very very nice people. After that window-shopped with Ellin. She bought a Step Up DVD and 2 manga. RICH! I was left with 3 plus dollars so I couldn't buy my Kingdom Hearts 2 manga. Then bought my chicken and went home. Good thing I didn't ate KFC with the others. The foodcourt food tasted much better, and healthier.
You know, people can be so unfair and judgmental. 'Slow' is just a word, and does it look insulting to you? If you were offended, then what do those harsh insults you said to me in the past count as? You offend people and don't even know it.
To the other you, I have no idea why you called me 'asshole' when I didn't even do anything to you. I was really pissed off. The more I write, the more I wanna slit your throat. And does hating LianZhi concern you? Ya, I hate him, I hate him to the core. So? It's my problem, not yours. And call yourself a friend. You, no, everyone takes his side. Specially you. Who was the one who stuck with all of you when he left all of you? Who? WHO?!?! How can you tell he was joking in the past? I have limits. I'm mortal. Whatever he says to insult people is just a joke; Whatever I say, mostly not even meant to make fun of anyone, is insulting and offending? Why? If you like what I say, then don't listen, no one told you too.
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I have been watching Kingdom Hearts 2: Final Mix+ gameplay vids on Youtube for quite a long time. Here's one of 'em: Sora VS Larxene, the Savage Nymph (Imagine I'm the girl, cept not a girl, and LianZhi the player, and pretend that me losing never happened.)
Well, till next time.
Monday, April 14, 2008
5:46 AM
Salutations puny Earthlings!
First and foremost, I would like to announce that I got 3rd in class for the E Maths Vectors Test! Not to brag but, I haven felt this way ever since Sec. 1 when I got full marks for the first class test, that is, I screwed up the rest of the papers. However, the bad thing was that I screwed up my Differentiation of Trigo and Logarithm test really really badly. Whatever. I don't know why, but, I like A Maths a lot more than E Maths but I always screwed A Maths papers up.
On 12th of April, I went to the XinMin Homecoming Day. It didn't clash with the public concert, but I just didn't want to go to the concert. The homecoming was fun, specially when I can meet up my primary school besties!
I officially have a new new new, okay not very, enemy. Hees. Yup, it is the one and only King of Flirts, JASON! Firstly, STOP TAKING MY FUCKING HELLO PANDAS! YOU FUCKING BASTARD! THE HELLO PANDA IS MINE AND DARYL'S AND YOU DON'T HAVE ANY FUCKING RIGHT TO FUCKING TAKE OUR HELLO PANDAS! THE WAY YOU ATE IT WAS EVEN MORE DISTURBING! YOU ATE THEM LIKE YOU WERE DRINKING WATER! AND CAN YOU RESPECT DARYL AND I WHEN WE WANTED YOU TO FUCKING STOP TAKING OUR FUCKING HELLO PANDAS! i WAS SO HAPPY WHEN GUO LAO SHI CAME IN AND SHOUTED AT YOU! IF YOU EVER MAKE MY LIFE AS A CHINESE REP MISERABLE I AM SO GONNA FUCKING MAKE YOUR FUCKING LIFE FUCKING MISERABLE! AND I DECIDED NOT TO SCREAM AT YOU THAT DAY FOR FUCKINGLY TAKING FUCKING HELLO PANDAS IS COS I WAS SCARED YOU WOULD CRY! AND YOU FUCKING WANTED TO EAT SOME HELLO PANDAS IN FRONT OF GUO LAO SHI AND GOT HER TO COMPLAIN TO MR TIEN! FUCK YOU MAN(ER, EEW)! Secondly,YOU THINK BERLINDA IS GONNA CHOOSE YOU! OH GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK! EVEN IF SHE CHOSE YOU, IT WON'T LAST LONG. SHE WILL KNOW THAT WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER, YOU ARE EYEING 1000 OTHER GIRLs. DON'T BE SAD, IT WAS NEVER EVER MEANT TO BE, EVER NEVER EVER NEVER NEVER! Thirdly, THE COMBINATION OF YOU AND LIANZHI TOGETHER, CONSTANTLY TRYING TO ATTRACT EVERY SINGLE TEACHER'S ATTENTION IS 100% PURE TORTURE. IT JUST MAKES MY BLOOD SUBLIMES! STOP TRYING TO ATTRACT EVERYONE'S ATTENTION FOR GOD'S SAKE! UGH IT IS SO DISGUSTING I CAN'T REALLY DESCRIBE IT IN WORDS BUT I SURE CAN WITH BLOOD.
Oh yay! NanYang Girls' School won over some other school in the Arena!
Anyway, it is really amazing how me and lianzhi would have this repelling effect around one another. Everytime, you sit at the more lively table in the morning and I am stuck at the side. Today, I found it very amusing how emofied you looked when you sat at my usual seat. I will try to make it to school earlier to see that face every single day, MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
You know i signed up for both events, Javelin and the Novely Race for the Sports Day. And I manage to miss out on both events cos of Chem. It's not that I'm angry at Mr Tien but I think its not fair that we were not really given a chance to take part in the events., and Mr Tien loves to drag the lesson by like 2 hours or something like that. It's annoying at times.
Well, I will be looking forward to see which 4e-rian's conclusion gets chosen, though it's quite obvious it would be Ian, Kim(though their group will be choosing Jon's), LianZhi(still a mystery; it really isn't that nice) and Eunice.
