Okay, so what I predicted was quite close to the real thing. I know, I should be very angry and disappointed at myself, and I am. 2008 was a bad year from the start. I don't know, last year was a rather unlucky year for me, now that I think about it. In all aspects, I seem to have failed terribly. Anyway, rock bottom feels, well, painfully bad. Excruciating, achingly, searing, however you may describe it. But whatever it is, it was self-inflicted. Wasting time on things that don't even matter to me now, they were wrong choices. If I had a chance to change everything, I would. In fact, everything started on that very day, the day life turned bleak for me. I just realize the life I have led was wrong form the start. I can't work with neanderthals at home. I can't work with all the piercing noise from the neanderthals at home. I should have lived alone, like the Japanese people. It seemed so nice. Moreover, I can have sleepovers whenever I want.
Anyway, they were disppointed with me too, but I don't care how they think. But what pisses me off is their ancient way of thinking. If I do not get admitted into a junior college, it would mean to them that it will be collecting trash for the rest of my life. Anyway, I have decided that I wanna get into a polytechnic. I don't know, it seems enticing, especially the extended holidays. Plus, I don't need to take up so many subjects that I hate. The only subjects that seem to appeal to me in a JC is English, ... and English Literature. Ya, what's the point of entering anyway? In a ploytechnic, at least I can actually like whatever shit I am studying. Okay, he just said Apparel Design sucks cos male designers are stereotyped as gays. WHATEVER!
I am going into a polytechnic, and I don't care.
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