I think I am the only one who hasn't submitted the JAE crap, and I had no idea it was already the 15th. I don't know whether should I submit now or submit tomorrow, cos my dad is alseep and it is kinda weird to submit it alone, and at such a timing.
I am still feeling pretty down about the whole crappy thing. I don't know, people are telling me to put it behind me. But I should be sad, and it would mean I do care about it. But the two beasts tell me that I am not sad enough. Well, how should I feel? I know I should feel sad, but it doesn't mean I have to. Do I have to prove that I am sad? Like, how can people do that? The degree of sadness, it is hard to define. Must I stand on the edge of the building to prove it? I have cried enough, and I have mourned enough about it. I can't do anything to change it. But if I could, I would be doing whatever it takes right now.