Jealousy, such an evil thing. It is not just a feeling. It pains you. It stings you. It eats you from inside, until you have nothing left. But everyone will be jealous of someone, it is inevitable that someone is better than you. But, the question is, 'Are there people who are jealous of you?'
Well, 'Yes' is a simple answer to everyone. But not for me. And the thing is, I am not only the most imperfect person in the class, but the most worthless one too. Well, it is not only the few people in the class I envy. It is everyone. Yes, I envy every single one of you, 4E. As I type this post, all the jealousy gets stronger and stronger, each specific greatness I long for, all of them I know I will never be able to obtain.
Let go, I told myself. Yes, I did. There is no point in persevering if I already know that the fruits of my labour will be as rotten as a corpse. But I do have a purpose, I have to admit. I am a stepping stone, a stepping stone for other people to love themselves. Look at me, look at yourself. Be lucky you are not me. Your intelligence, your physique, your personality, you have it all. You just don't know it. Love yourself.
