Hi smart person who is reading my post right now.
This is the blog of a very stupid person who is doubting his ability to get though his academic life.
In primary school, he was another average student who aimed to pass his exams. He had difficulties passing those exams from Primary 1 to Primary 4, with mediocre results to boot. After managing to hang on to a position in EM2, he went to a class where everyone was like him, people who had average results. After the first Mid-Year passed, he found a glimmer of hope in all his subjects as he started to ace the exams quite well, clinching the 5th position in his class in Primary 5. When he went to Primary School, things were even better, where he topped all subjects except for Chinese and got 2nd place in his class. The hard effort he put in paid off in the PSLE where he got an aggregate score of 236. He was enrolled to NCHS.
After entering secondary school, things seemed to take a turn for the bad. His grades dropped drastically, and had average scores again. In Secondary 2, he had greater difficulties coping with studies due to some interpersonal conflicts. He hardly passed his Science, but was lucky to get into a Double Science class. In Secondary 3, things seemed to get better, but started falling again. He did not do quite well for his End-of-Year Examinations. He did not have a good start in Secondary 4, and results slipped like soap in the bathroom. 'C's were all he saw, even with the best teachers to coach him.
Now, after Mid-Year Examinations, he finally realized that he isn't cut out for the Express Stream. He is too dumb and stupid for it. He failed 4 subjects, 2 of which are languages. He is not only lazy, but dumb too. He has been counting on luck to pass, he realized too. He is downright incompetent and stupid. He is the most imperfect person in his class, no brains and brawns. He is flunking everything, just everything. He feels worthless to this class, and his grades are pulling the class's MSG down a lot. He cannot do anything to save himself, and help the class. He has brought this class shame, and feels disappointed with himself. I am sorry 4E. I cannot pull the class's MSG up and cannot help you all win 4I. Sorry, 4E, I know I am worthless. Give up on me if you must, because I already did myself. I failed myself. Let me go back to where i belong. I do not belong here. I am not welcomed to this world. I want it all to end. My torn and tattered soul wants to rest.
