I Closed The Book.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

1:27 AM

Currently watching Hana Kimi.

There's not much to do besides watching tv and studying chinese. I'm gonna start studying tomorrow. Won't help much anyway. I'm too stupid to ace anything.

I am one of the FEW people in class who would have to attend the parent-teacher session. It's gonna be a long talk.

I am looking forward to the class outing, really. It is the last good thing on my mind right now, besides dinner. I am gonna go high that day, way high. I am not gonna let anything, I mean anything, to ruin that day. I will kill whoever who wants to ruin my day. It is the only good thing in my mind that is keeping from taking the plunge, slicing my arm, swallowing those pills, drinking bleach, whatever.

I had my promotion test yesterday. There was an essay question, 'List the problems faced by the unit.' I wrote my conclusion as 'If the problems are not solved, the unit will be plunged into a cesspool of doom and despair, forever to roam the cold, empty world of tarnished reputations and the absence of a gold unit....' Lols.

Going to take a nap. Depressed people shows signs of fatigue.

Friday, May 16, 2008

8:26 AM

Hi smart person who is reading my post right now.

This is the blog of a very stupid person who is doubting his ability to get though his academic life.

In primary school, he was another average student who aimed to pass his exams. He had difficulties passing those exams from Primary 1 to Primary 4, with mediocre results to boot. After managing to hang on to a position in EM2, he went to a class where everyone was like him, people who had average results. After the first Mid-Year passed, he found a glimmer of hope in all his subjects as he started to ace the exams quite well, clinching the 5th position in his class in Primary 5. When he went to Primary School, things were even better, where he topped all subjects except for Chinese and got 2nd place in his class. The hard effort he put in paid off in the PSLE where he got an aggregate score of 236. He was enrolled to NCHS.

After entering secondary school, things seemed to take a turn for the bad. His grades dropped drastically, and had average scores again. In Secondary 2, he had greater difficulties coping with studies due to some interpersonal conflicts. He hardly passed his Science, but was lucky to get into a Double Science class. In Secondary 3, things seemed to get better, but started falling again. He did not do quite well for his End-of-Year Examinations. He did not have a good start in Secondary 4, and results slipped like soap in the bathroom. 'C's were all he saw, even with the best teachers to coach him.

Now, after Mid-Year Examinations, he finally realized that he isn't cut out for the Express Stream. He is too dumb and stupid for it. He failed 4 subjects, 2 of which are languages. He is not only lazy, but dumb too. He has been counting on luck to pass, he realized too. He is downright incompetent and stupid. He is the most imperfect person in his class, no brains and brawns. He is flunking everything, just everything. He feels worthless to this class, and his grades are pulling the class's MSG down a lot. He cannot do anything to save himself, and help the class. He has brought this class shame, and feels disappointed with himself. I am sorry 4E. I cannot pull the class's MSG up and cannot help you all win 4I. Sorry, 4E, I know I am worthless. Give up on me if you must, because I already did myself. I failed myself. Let me go back to where i belong. I do not belong here. I am not welcomed to this world. I want it all to end. My torn and tattered soul wants to rest.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

7:27 AM

My results are fucking disgusting. It was utterly horrijiberistical.

So far, I only got an A2. I failed 2 subjects, which is the first time in my secondary school life. Ugh! I hate it that I did study and still end up failing Biology. Unlike last year, I did get quite a few stuff memorized. And I understood the stuff, and I even studied MEIOSIS which I never knew a shit about. I really studied. I really studied. Its so not fair. And I was so confident that my paper 1 was gonna be quite ok but it ended up only a 24/40. The Combined Science Biology Paper looked really tempting, for me to drop that is. I failed my essays. I wrote damn lot and ended getting 1 mark for each essay. Its always the same. No keywords. Come on, we are left with 15 minutes to write four essays and we still have time for keywords? WTH. TMD. I feel so demoralized now. Really. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow, especially when there is NPCC. WTF. NPCC just brings more sadness into my life. And moreover, there is a Chinese Mock Paper 1 tomorrow. Can things get any worst? Luckily Monday is Vesak Day. No school. Then Tuesday comes the stupid dupid night programme. Fuck this shit man( Sorry I am watching my brother play GTA right now ).

My Chemistry wasn't good either. 55/100. Mr Tien said I was mediocre. I agree. But I did study, until 3am mind you. I am going to continue taking Pure Sciences. I already screwed up my Combined Humanities, more of not giving a damn fucking shit, and it is also the first F9 in my life. To think I used to top EMS in my class in primary school. Apparently this is not the working environment for me. I can only work in a class where everyone does badly and I do well. Bad but true.

I shall not talk anymore. I just want poeple to tag my blog. I don't know why but I am just very sad now. Throw me a knives and let me stab myself. GO TO HELL NIGEL!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

8:12 AM

Finally. Mid Years are over. I can finally take a break from all the friggin tests, though there is Chinese Mock P1 on this Friday. When will the MOE realize that teenagers are actually mortal, human beings, with a limited number of brain cells?

Anyway, the exams were okay, except a few subjects which I think I will fail.

Subjects expected to fail: Chemistry, Chinese, English, Combined Humanities(lols).

Subjects expected to pass: E.Maths, A.Maths, Geography, Biology(hope my paper 1 can pull up my score).

Anyway, I can't change what I have done, so I'll face the music on Thursday.

Schedule for tomorrow: 10.30am - Meet Cherie, YingTing and Melissa at Compass Point 7-11.
10.30am to (4-6pm) - Go Paragon, then Wisma, NYDC for lunch(No
idea what it is) and hope to find a jacket.
(4-6)pm to night - Meet WenXin, Jolin, Pearl, JiaJia, and JiaRui at some
place if I still have time.

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As I promised, I will post about Pearl's Birthday Celebration.

People who went: Pearl(duhx), Olivia, Kim, JiaHui, Me, Jonathan, Ernest, JiaRui, ChengSiong,
LianZhi(#$!#@%!@#%!$%~!#@%!#$~!@#%&^#$@$^#$@#%#$^!@#$%!)

First, we gathered outside KFC to wait for Pearl and I realized that LianZhi came after saying he wanted to study and came earlier than me somemore.(If all you wanted to do all day was to study then might as well don't come lahx. Asshole. Sucker. Ruin my celebrating mood. You know what? Next when you go to someone's birthday celebration, bring out your Geography textbook when everyone else does. Gosh. When people are eating, you study. Like I don't care whether you want an A1 or not, but hey, don't poop the party partypooper! Like WTH. TMD. Fuck this shit. And can you give a smile when Jon asked you to join us. Like I'm kind enough I didn't point my fork at your throat and you still gave us that fucking attitude. Next time, don't come if you plan to spoil my mood, bastard!) Anyway, she came and we went to Cafe Cartel. Ate a lot of food, ribs(really nice), grilled fish, chicken, and I ordered the salad. I feel so proud of myself. Was really fun cutting the bread, with Ernest lols. Then ordered a slice of cheesecake and brownies. Sang the birthday and took some photos, with my phone.

After that, we went to study at Kim's. LianZhi(*thanks god with a suckling pig* lol) and ChengSiong left. Studied physical geography. After filling my brain with knowledge to the brink, chatted around. Left at 5.15pm. Went home, studied, and blah blah blah.

Here are the photos of everyone(cept me *pulls hair out*):

(Due to some technical difficulties, the posting of photos of Pearl's Brithday Celebration will be delayed. This sucks, I know)

Anyway, I think that's all. Bye!

Thursday, May 1, 2008

3:18 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEARL!!!!

Shall post about the outing after MYE.

P.S.: It sucks that everyone used my phone and none of them took a photo with me. Grrr. Roar. NOT FAIR!