Today's Sunday, and tomorrow is Monday. I have seriously Monday blues and it feels as if I have 10 elephants tied to me.
Well, today I wanna talk about, erm, stuff.
NPCC has been dull and boring as usual. I'm passing out already and I still act like a cadet. Like duh, how can we even have the motivation when we have all those friggin CIs are breathing down our necks. Like last week, they were crapping for more than an hour about some leadership and motivation bullshit. It was so boring I almost fell asleep, if not for ZiLing, Vanessa and MuiHwee's constant wake up calls. Who cares why you wanna become a CIs? Save it for someone who actually does. I can feel everyone around me getting more serious and less fun loving. I promised myself I would never become one of those mean NCOs when I become one. It's like getting brainwashed.
I'm currently sitting beside Daryl, and I am improving. Whoots! Behind is LX and JianYu, and in front is Jane, KiaWee, and Aaron. It's really fun there. We joke around everyday, and we have lots of fun there. Laughter everyday. They like me who I am, and well, they happen to be closest guy friends in secondary school life. Ya, they do make fun of my weight and all, but they apologize and tell me that they were joking. I can tell it too. And when I make fun of them, they don't angry either. Same goes for Cherie, Jane and I. We make fun of each other constantly, but we know that we are joking and we have limits. Its not like we insult each other and tell each other to suck it up. Well, thats cos we dun have too. We go far beyond calling each other 'slow', and we didn't get pissed. Well, besides them, I am also getting to know a lot of other people, like WenXin, Jolin, JiaRui and JieSheng (Well, they did welcome me to lunch with them with open arms), Bella and YanLing.
Its not like some other people who expect me to be their 'dog'. Ya, they can insult me and give a stupid excuse saying they were joking. And when I 'insult'( ya, you call 'slow' offensive') them, they see it as an insult and gets pissed off. And when they piss me off they expect me to suck it up. And FYI, I never called you all asshole, not even once. Call me oversensitive? Whadabout you? And so what if LianZhi was really joking in the past? Well he should have spared a thought for my feelings(which none of you even care) before opening his shit hole. Well, he started it. And I was stupid to remain silent in the past. Who made him the king? Who gave him the right to boss me around and I have to listen? I admit, I was fucking stupid in the past. And if you think I should have opened my mouth, well been there, done that, didn't work. Yes, I didn't get over it. And it happened to get out somehow. Now its too late, and I don't think I should be blamed for this. I didn't open his mouth and force him to talk.
Call me an ass, I don't care anymore. Now I know where and who I should turn to, you know, so I don't insulted and be told to suck it up.
